"It's a brand new day, the sun is shining. It's a brand new day. For the first time, in such a long long time, I know...I'll be okay."
For the first time in a long time I am actually moving forward with my life. I'm really determined to make my life into something special and not waste it! I have been wanting to get into promotions and eventually open a music promotions company before I eventually open my own record label. Until recently I didn't think that was ever going to happen. Now, after a year of fighting to get somewhere I am promoting for North East Music and The End Bar and I've just been asked to run the music pages for Big Eye Network. It's only voluntary but its the start of my dream. I needed the experience and now the chance to learn as much as I can has been handed to me and I swear I'm going to make the most of this!
I'm actually really optimistic about my life now and even though I'm having a few hiccups with my health (my illness is coming back and I'm really run down) I'm not going to let that get ontop of me!
"The cycle never ends. Gotta fall in order to mend."
One thing I have learnt over the past few years is sometimes you have to really hit rock bottom for something amazing to happen and if you just have a little hope you will get to where you want to be eventually. I have to admit though, if it wasn't for certain people believing in me I wouldn't be where I am now so I've really got to thank them. Expecially one person in particular...the guy mentioned in my previous post...my boyfriend Tony. He has made me realise that I can actually do what I want to do with my life and has helped me to make the most of the opportunities I have been given so a huge thanks to him!
"You are lovely tonight. You, dear, will guide me into the morning light. You are lovely tonight. Lay here beside me, I see the rest of my life...with you!"
